i've been feeling quite down recently if i have to be honest, i mean, despite the fact that i satisfied my mom's high standards and heard her say that shes finally proud of me i still feel sorta down, i feel like i still havent done enough and that shes saying it just to make me feel better, life sucks man. i haven't binged in a while so i guess thats good, i still try to get only max 400 kcal a day and recently i found out how i can finally fall asleep - energy drinks dont have that "i can stay awake for 4 days after drinking 3 monsters" effect on me, i usually feel sleepy afterwards, that's why i figured out that if i drink 2 of them every day i'll fall asleep at night regularly - and it worked! i can now sleep like a little baby at 9pm and wake up feeling like a newborn baby!
also, PLEASE don't bother reaching out to me if you're going to get mad at me for me thinking differently than some other people or if you are close to skrill (twisted doctor)
